I've struggled with how I was going to write about this because I don't want to give the wrong idea. After my last post about my weight and relationship with food, I made a conscious effort to pay attention to how my body felt all day. I started realizing that when I felt hungry, often it was just an obsessive craving for a certain food. That's how I would end up doing things like eating at Chinese buffets for lunch.
Once I started recognizing the difference, I realized I wasn't hungry as often as I thought I was. Very often, a small snack of almonds and skim string cheese was enough to satisfy me for quite a while. For maybe the first time in my life I was able to go grocery shopping on an empty stomach and not consider any poor choices for a 'snack' on the way home.
The other change I've made is stopping eating when I'm still a little hungry. A half hour later if I'm still hungry I eat something small but, more often than not, I'm fine. I no longer feel stuffed or sleepy after lunch.
The reason I've struggled with writing about this is I don't want anyone to think I've just stopped eating to lose weight. I go to bed satisfied every night and I think I'm still eating between 1800 and 2000 calories a day. The only difference is I pay closer attention to my body than my mind when it comes to eating and I don't eat to what I used to think was full. Now I'm below 290 lbs for the first time in about 4 years.
On a side note, I have mutant crickets invading my house.
|Exudes evil, amirite?|
These are what the crickets I saw as a kid looked like:
I've decided my house must have been built over top of a radioactive meteorite that has altered the ecosystem in my crawl space.
This can only mean 1 of 3 things:
- This mutant horde will soon take over my house and you will read about us in the Huffington Post in the near future.
- My memories of my childhood are unrealistic fantasies of an Eden overflowing with milk and honey.
- I can expect to wake up soon with super powers of my own and I need to start thinking about a superhero name.