Monday, April 23, 2012

Buddha Bringin' It

You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.
-- Buddha 

When I show people that picture at the top of the page of me with Buddha I always ask, "Can you tell which one's the Buddha?"  Today I made about five cracks about my weight.  I'm always trying to beat someone to the punch.

I spend way too much time worrying what other people think of me.  What a waste of time and effort.  Either people will support you for trying and being who you are or they aren't worth worrying about.

The part of me that likes easy solutions (which is most of me) wants to complain about low self-esteem and depression and fairness as if I were born with some impossible to overcome affliction.  But the tiny little part of me that wants more out of life wants to learn a new way to think.  To trust people to not hurt me.  To pity and forgive those that do.  Pretty touchy-feely, huh?  Well, touchy-feel beats the hell out of spending my life being mad at people for not thinking or acting the way I do.  That's a very sad way to go through life.  I'm starting to realize that the more advanced and stronger human shouldn't need to think that way.  Nothing anyone says or thinks about me can truly hurt me.

I am not a religious person but I have a believe that somewhere deep inside be lies the ability to be Buddha-like.  The only problem is that when I read about loving people and accepting their faults I ask myself, "Even the morons and swindlers and cheats and all the inconsiderate self-absorbed jerks and even... *GASP*... POLITICIANS??!?!?!"  I think I do.  Because my wanting them to change doesn't make them any closer to my ideal.  It only detracts from my happiness.

When I was in Taiwan I saw ancient sculptures of Buddha.  Guess what?  He was thin, not the fat and sassy, jolly old elf you tend to see nowadays.  I mean, he walked everywhere and lived on food offerings.  So I can try and be like Buddha in all ways (except the begging for food; feeding myself is a flaw I'm willing to live with).  Being willing to accept people as they are and try and see the beauty in each and every one is my next fearless, if tentative, step on my new path.

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